Monday, April 05, 2010

Bring on the Pain

I whipped out a calculator and estimated that in his short little life, I have nursed Charley more than 2500 times. The same would go for Tessa actually since I nursed her until 14 months as well. So a personal record of 5,000 or more times.

And tonight was the last time (at least for a while that is). Charley has been nursing only at bedtime for a couple weeks now but now we are done. It was a little hard to detach him, knowing what was in store.

So today for the first time since July of 2006, I am neither pregnant nor nursing anyone. I think it will take a few days to know what to do with not be physically needed (or leached from). A new era for sure.

One thing I know for sure is that the week ahead hold pain for me. By Wednesday I'll expect to be crying and leaking, and perhaps I'll try that old wives tale by putting some cabbage in my bra.


Marcie said...

Psalm 131: My heart is not proud, O LORD, my eyes are not haughty; I do not concern myself with great matters or things too wonderful for me. But I have stilled and quieted my soul; like a weaned child with its mother, like a weaned child is my soul within me. O Israel, put your hope in the LORD both now and forevermore.

The cool thing about weaning is that the child has a new peace with you, not just because you "are a feed bag" as Jenn says, endearingly. There is a freedom to being enjoyed as a person -- the kind of freedom that God wants us to enjoy in Him, not just that He provides, but because He's a great Guy!

Jacqueline said...

Do you have a pump? Evan a small hand pump would work... After pain when weaning Z, I changed my approach with E. When I was done with the boob, I would still pump just a tad every night (less and less time every night), and after a bit, I was done... no clogged ducts, no leaking, and no pain or discomfort. It worked for me... but everyone's different, of course.

phasejumper said...

I feel for you. I quit cold turkey when B was still full time feeding (didn't know you weren't supposed to do that) and I had three awful days!

erin said...

well even though my engorgement was by coice i feel for you and strongly since im swollen as humanly possible right now. i didn't try the cabbage since i'm an allergic freak of nature but even my doc suggested it upon dismissal from the hospital so i say load up the produce mama!