Thursday, August 20, 2009

Alive in the Trenches

People tell me all the time how funny and lively they think the blog is. Thank you! I don't want to bring things down with this post, just keep it real. My intent with this blog was never to portray our life as sunshine and rainbows...because that wouldn't be true. It is what it is, life. And lately it's not been easy, so I thought I'd share.

Last year one of our speakers at MOPs said that being a Mom of babies and toddlers (or both at the same time) was like being in the trenches of parenthood. It's hard and dirty and dangerous. But her wise words were to 'hang in there' will get better. I thought of her while writing this.

I'm alive in the trenches
with a 6 month old and a 2 year old, and two obnoxious dogs
my husband not only travels but has been gone all summer
He has logged 100K airline miles since March
I'm not a single parent
but at the moment I feel like it

My toddler is experimenting with tantrums
my baby is experimenting with biting me
both have schemed to never nap at the same time
the dogs are experimenting with peeing inside instead of outside

Sometimes we eat at Mcdonalds, sometimes we eat homemade meals
Sometimes we dance around our kitchen in joy
Sometimes I pray just to make it to bedtime

I'm fat and not budging
too tired, too overwhelmed
too hungry

I wonder if the toddler is getting enough education
enough stimulation and socialization
I wonder if my husband is missing too much
I know he feels like he is

I know God is good
I know He hears me all the time, even when I don't know what to say
I know we will get through this time
I know we have lots of friends and family who love us and will take care of us
and worry about this post

I'm just letting you know that I'm here
it's not all sunshine and rainbows at our house
We're alive
in the trenches

I lift up my eyes to the hills— where does my help come from? 2 My help comes from the LORD, the Maker of heaven and earth. Psalm 121:1-2


TLS said...

Thank goodness for parents like you who are in the trenches. Keep it up. Your family is stable and well adjusted. You are a good mom!

phasejumper said...
This comment has been removed by a blog administrator.
phasejumper said...

Great that you are keeping it real. I am amazed at all your activities and food making while your hubby is traveling. Sometimes (since my whole family etc. reads my blog) it's easy for me to skip over the hard parts of having kids (like wiping one's butt while attempting to breastfeed the other, or crying out of tiredness when the baby just can't be pacified in the middle of the night...)when I blog. Anyway, love reading your posts.

Anonymous said...

Grandmother's Comments: As I look back, I wonder how Bob and I did it all - We had to multi-task with a business, jobs, activities, children and their activities, the farm full of animals, and crops to put in, and oh yes, the ice business! But each day we learned to prioritize, and luckily we all held our for the children and grandchildren, they amaze me as to what they have accomplished. There were a lot of bumps along the way but I just try to remember the good times. Your children are priveleged - they are healthy and happy, and you will have a lot of happy memories.....

erin said...

The beauty of children is what they teach us, not what we teach them. You have an amazing family and you worry because you're great parents! Remember that it's always harder to be a good parent. It's easy to give up. Love you guys!